vainglorious

I had the following thought this afternoon: this would be so much easier if I just had a boyfriend* or a husband - better yet, a partner. Yuck. When thoughts like that cross my mind, I am ashamed and upset with myself for not thinking I can stand completely on my own. These thoughts usually cross my mind when a.) I have car touble, b.) there’s a frustrating scenario where I desperately need help or a favor, or c.) I need something hung in my apartment and while I could do it myself, I’d rather someone else do it.  I know I’m not the only girl who’s had these thoughts though. I’ve discussed this with others. It sometimes seems like certain situations would not be quite as stressful if you had someone reliable (sigh, a guy) there to assist you. And that sucks.

This afternoon the particular situation that had me yearning for a partner was the fact that my license is still cancelled because of stupid shit in Texas and it is mandatory that I appear in court on Wednesday afternoon at 2pm. The best person in the entire world, Alice, has lent me money to help me with this unfortunate situation I’ve gotten myself into, but I thought today, “If only I had a boyfriend I could make him drive me to the Dekalb County Courthouse and then back to Athens.” But I do not and I’d never ask my friends to skip class to help my law-breaking ass out, so what do I do? Not sure yet, but I have less than 48 hours to figure it out.

*Let me clarify, I do not want a man in my life just for the sake of having someone, I’d rather be single right now while I’m finishing school and I’m not just going to go settle for some schmuck because I need help with something. If someone came along who was worth it, then that’d be different.