vainglorious

When I was in high school maybe, I remember reading my mother’s diary about me (old school...

Mon, 20 May 2013 20:26:00 -0500

When I was in high school maybe, I remember reading my mother’s diary about me (old school mommy blog?) and she wrote about comforting me because I was sad because a bunch of girls were excluding me and didn’t invite me to a slumber party. This was … 20+ years ago? And the same thing happened today. I’m not everyone’s cup of tea and moving to Chicago has been a fucking struggle. A girl at work is not a huge fan, we just clash, and excluded me in something on purpose and I am sad. As someone who struggles with anxiety which makes me nervous that everyone hates me but also can come on strong in many situations, some people just aren’t into me and that’s okay, not everyone is your person/your people. But that feeling today? That I’m being purposefully excluded when no other women in my department are being excluded by this person for a social event? Well I may as well be 7 years old again. You get to choose that shit! You do! She gets to choose to not have me at her thing. But it feels awful. I just want to go home. I’m exhausted by dealing with this shit … which has been the last year at this job. The cliques. For many reasons, different teams and client verticals and other shit, I always seem to be the odd one out and the one who doesn’t fit in. When does it get easier? I called my mom crying because I’m a sensitive shit and just kept saying. I want to come home. I want to come home. Between this and the breakup, I am just beating myself up. I should be better. I should be able to handle it all. I’m almost fucking 30.

motherjones: Once more, for the afternoon crowd: Actual quotes...

Mon, 20 May 2013 11:21:25 -0500

motherjones:

Once more, for the afternoon crowd: Actual quotes from Georgia Senate candidates set to photos of adorable animals. (This one’s from Rep. Phil Gingrey, with an assist from one Stephen Colbert.)

Well home state, this is what we’ve come to. The only way Gingrey/Broun et al. will ever be palatable I guess.

Why Amazon Prime is the best/worst: $7 and free shipping for...

Fri, 17 May 2013 21:01:45 -0500

Why Amazon Prime is the best/worst: $7 and free shipping for these.

Tumblr: get it together. I just tried to post this via iPad app...

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:50:00 -0500

Tumblr: get it together. I just tried to post this via iPad app and you couldn’t manage. So no bathing suit and my bitchy post went nowhere? Life is the worst.

JK. But whatevs. Swimsuits for All my ass. I am disappoint. They can’t even auto notify me when it’s available again. I literally ordered less than an hour after they were listed. Yay for Gabi though.

My summer anthem. Replace Pussy with Penis. Never not...

Thu, 16 May 2013 07:41:00 -0500

My summer anthem. Replace Pussy with Penis. Never not crass!

Thank you based brazilian girls.

"Try to be interested in what he’s interested in. Watching football and fishing is actually fun if..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 07:05:00 -0500

“Try to be interested in what he’s interested in. Watching football and fishing is actually fun if you step away from the Gossip Girl every once in awhile so don’t keep whining if he wants you to take part of something he likes to do. Try to give it a chance. Also, don’t be afraid to order a cheeseburger and fries with him every once in awhile.”

- Dating Like A Dude

This is why I can’t take you seriously most of the time Hello Giggles. This is advice? Lord. Step away from the gender stereotypes.

"A sunburned man waylaid by Miller High Life and his own mortality lays prone on the sand. “Fuck..."

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:46:37 -0500

“A sunburned man waylaid by Miller High Life and his own mortality lays prone on the sand. “Fuck Alabama!” he yells to no one in particular. “______,” Alabama yells back.”

- i set out to review the trailer for “the hangover: part III” for scene missing mag but ended up talking about florabama (the florida/alabama border). (via brookehatfield)

We went to the Florabama and it was perfect.

(via Gabi Galaxy Bikini with Sheer Inserts -...

Wed, 15 May 2013 00:08:00 -0500

(via Gabi Galaxy Bikini with Sheer Inserts - swimsuitsforall)

Starscape bikini for those of us with big breasts? YEP. PURCHASED. Curious how the bottoms will fit as the smallest size is not mine … but I’ll make it work.

Which brings up the issue of … I’m “plus sized” up top but not on bottom and that’s fucking obnoxious to figure out with stores. Even swimsuits 4 all.

YAY COOLED AIR LIFE. Yes I asked my ex bf to come over and...

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:26:22 -0500

YAY COOLED AIR LIFE. Yes I asked my ex bf to come over and install my AC unit and may have made fun of his outfit. But I also gave him beer so not the worst.

"The lonely person was just about the most terrifying spectacle in the world."

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:45:38 -0500

“The lonely person was just about the most terrifying spectacle in the world.”

- You’re making it sound kind of boss, though. (via amandahess)

For real. BEHOLD ME THE SPECTACLE.

following my arrow

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:15:00 -0500

today i met this dude — david allen
and this dude — jim fallows
for work for an 8 hour meeting about something really cool we’re making for you that won’t be ready till like 2014 or something
then we went to this place for dinner — gt oyster
i ate lobster + caviar for the first time ever
i hate seafood and i’m allergic to shrimp so avoid but client dinner — you eat and say nothing
yay lobster, ugh caviar
i became so animated while discussing SEC football that i knocked over a water glass and my boss shot me evil glances
days like today and nights like tonight, i feel good about being here
but then, i don’t know … i feel out of place
tomorrow, taylor will come over and install my A/C unit and i’ll ask about his date last week with the girl who has been vying for him since march or so and i won’t cry
i lost to her i guess? (he’d tell you something VERY VERY different — she was a non-factor, etc.) i’m disgustingly competitive and this shit falls into that category
we’ll act like we’re friends and i’ll be way more sad than i let on
but that’s tomorrow
now that today is done, and today took MONDO prep, i can focus on other things a bit … just a little bit
springle yo

Crying over this photo like a weirdo. Moms y’all!

Sat, 11 May 2013 22:18:33 -0500

Crying over this photo like a weirdo. Moms y’all!

Country ladies: you’re finally getting it!

Thu, 09 May 2013 20:43:38 -0500

Country ladies: you’re finally getting it!

Welp. Then I opened Rdio. Pistol Annies are amaze btw.

Thu, 09 May 2013 20:27:08 -0500

Welp. Then I opened Rdio. Pistol Annies are amaze btw.

you never know

Thu, 09 May 2013 19:35:00 -0500

you never know if your words will make someone feel just … not alone. sharing is caring. sharing struggles with others, sharing your dirty sordid details … your pain with others can help you and them. reading hyperbole and a half’s post today on depression made me realize how much i wasn’t sharing with people in my world who are not professionals and what i should share with others more often. if only for the sake of “someone should know i’m feeling this way.” being a buzzkill or a bummer is a constant fear though.

my own struggles with mental illness and depression apart from relationship and situation specific bouts are likely not something i’ll ever feel comfortable talking about openly. i certainly don’t here. but the thoughts of hopelessness and nothingness and the aching loneliness … it’s not foreign. the past year has broken me worse than anything has before and that’s okay. i hate feeling weak and vulnerable and pathetic so avoid such true and honest feelings in public … but sharing your deepest pain isn’t that, it’s strong and empowering and people should do it more.

those who can honestly and bravely discuss those issues? thank you. it’s so helpful and appreciated.

"Basically, it’s not that people born after 1980 are narcissists, it’s that young people are..."

Thu, 09 May 2013 19:21:13 -0500

“Basically, it’s not that people born after 1980 are narcissists, it’s that young people are narcissists, and they get over themselves as they get older. It’s like doing a study of toddlers and declaring those born since 2010 are Generation Sociopath: Kids These Days Will Pull Your Hair, Pee On Walls, Throw Full Bowls of Cereal Without Even Thinking of the Consequences.”

- Every Every Every Generation Has Been the Me Me Me Generation - Elspeth Reeve - The Atlantic Wire (via sexartandpolitics)

I don’t know, some of us are actually narcissists. Shrug.

bthny: womenbelike: Women be loving that cake, am I...

Wed, 08 May 2013 20:27:00 -0500

bthny:

womenbelike:

Women be loving that cake, am I right?

for a while I forgot about womenbelike but Facebook helped remind me

Oh man. Ladies be bakin’. My dream is NSFW but it def does not involve cake. There’s a halo…

Our group. Dress is DVF cuz I’m fancy.

Sat, 04 May 2013 17:36:53 -0500

Our group. Dress is DVF cuz I’m fancy.

today: ‘Fatkini’ blogger designs stylish plus-size...

Thu, 02 May 2013 08:20:28 -0500

today:

‘Fatkini’ blogger designs stylish plus-size bikinis

Need this bathing suit. So bad.

"[…] women scale back professionally to attend to child care and housework because of “choice”..."

Wed, 01 May 2013 12:18:00 -0500

“[…] women scale back professionally to attend to child care and housework because of “choice” or “personal preference”: That men aren’t doing this unpaid labor because they just don’t want to. Most of the time, however, this is rationalized away by pretending that women love cleaning up poop explosions or are just born to herd kids around. Witness the housewife profiled in New York Magazine who said “women keep it together better than guys do. ””

- Halfway To Admitting Why Women Do More Housework And Child Care Than Men | The Raw Story

Always super amusing to me because I don’t keep it together. I don’t clean or cook or any of that. And I’ve dated many men who are much better at all the domestic work than I am. I’m horribly unorganized (while not at work where I’m extremely capable of keeping it together) but yeah, if it was a biological imperative that women are better or more capable of such things then well I’d be broken. Or something. Essentially I don’t want to do it, but sometimes do as I live alone and guess what: I don’t feel that bad about it! Women are not a monolith.